hmm. very nice. my helmet & sbo and everything has been thrown away and i need to go for zeroing on thursday, nice. minor irritation. had to leave and go to the airport to quell my disquietude. aah well, it's just a bit of trouble

played chap ji kee too... paid a lot of "tuition fees" to my elders

i can't blame anyone can i? all trying to be nice and apologetic and helpful

sent off rumin at the airport today. it felt very rushed and all and wow all gone. her boyfriend was hiding in some other corner and it was very sweet when they said goodbye. i saw it through the bengawan solo shop. & some people took out their clarinets to play 'auld lang syne' cause a whole other bunch of them was leaving. i don't know if i would have cried (i didn't) but i think it's cause there were other people around and barnabas was kicking his sandal from place to place.

good. i still remember her when she was in sec 1.

i want to leave too. i don't think i can suffer goodbyes too. we should all leave. bye bye to everyone who's going to leave whom i won't see off. you see, once you've left, and you're on the other side, then everyone will be arriving, and all will be well and good.

the evening was anticlimatic and i started listening to "ai wo bie zou" many many times because i suddenly liked the song.

feeling too much, there's a danger you become an aesthethe or a softie who doesn't do anything and just dreams and dreams and dreams. feeling and not expressing. criminal. is it? oh everyone feels! nobody likes being put in a box! i can very well understand, it's almost futile at times like these, and you might as well give up writing this stupid blog that's online and all.

and another day i will urgh but i think i shall have to continue for discipline's sake for now.